February 2012
8 posts
This February is not my month.
I’m so behind in everything. It’s so overwhelming.
All I want to do right now is get away from this town for a while and take a little break from it all. All the pressures are getting to me and I don’t know how to handle it.
It’s just..ugh. Someone help me.
Time is moving on so fast and I don’t think I can keep up with it.
I wish my older brother was home to be there for me. Heh, that’s pretty selfish of me to say but still..
At times like this I wish I had someone in the convenience of my own home to confide in about the hardships that I face throughout the day.
I’m in need of some comfort here.. But as of tonight I’ll just let everything be and wait for the new day to come so I can have another chance to start over.
I want to say that I’m not feeling so uneasy anymore but emotions aren’t something that someone can just deny.
It’s 10:32 PM and I’m just here laying down, waiting for tomorrow to start so I can await for tomorrow so I can repeat the whole routine all over again.
My days have been so uneventful.. I’ve been thinking about this for a while now and I have come to the realization that this is probably how it’s going to be for a long long time from now, despite the fact that I’ll...
Who’s the bad guy here? Me?
It might as well be.
That’s always how it’s been.
I’m so done arguing with you all the time and never taking the chance to understand one another.
I’m done with raising my voice with you, as if it’ll make our point even more right by yelling.
I’m tired of trying to prove who’s right instead of what’s right.
I’m tired of that little ounce of hope inside of us having a closer relationship with each...
January 2012
9 posts
Sigh.
Being in this house all the time is really taking a toll on me. There isn’t anything for me to look forward to throughout the day so all I do is lounge around waiting for something to happen.
:|
Agh. Jekwnwvskabrj;
I’m going mad I tell you!
Ugh.
I’ve been looking for the longest time for that Batman necklace. Looks like I’m pretty rusty on my Google search skills.
But agh, I want it so bad. And looking at it on my dash just makes me want it even more.
:’(
You know, with the increasing percentage of married couples getting divorced recently.. I can’t help but to worry that one day my parents will fall into that category.
I feel weird admitting that, but seeing how real it is to see my peers deal with their parents being separated makes me believe that couples are being less and less patient with each other.
Every couple is going to bump...
Geeez, give a girl a break here.
The complications just keep on coming.
I started writing more often in my notebook about what’s been going through my mind recently. Even though I miss posting stuff here on my blog, I find more freedom and convenience to write on my notebook.
I don’t know, maybe when things settle down and ease up I’ll have time to write more here.. But I just wanted to take the time to post this up and tell myself that overtime...
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That awkward moment when you think that you’re almost done with the dishes but then someone decides to give you more and more.
I still feel troubled even though I’m in a state of position where I think I should be happy with my life.
I mean, I’m not as troubled as I used to be but the feeling is still there even though it’s faint.
Maybe.. I’m just so used to being in a conflict with myself that I can’t find comfort in being content with anything.
This sucks. :|
December 2011
15 posts
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:L
I hate having that feeling that I’m boring the person I’m having a conversation with.
LOLOLOL.
My dad is asking my brother and I for help with a level in Angry Birds.
I didn’t even know he was into that kinda thing, lmao.
Oh wow.
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Lol.
I find it so adorable how my dad gets so excited whenever my brother is planning on coming over to visit.
The first thing he wants to do is cook his favorite dish so he comes home with a happy tummy. ^___^
I’m crossing my fingers and hoping that I get to see my Kuya and his family later on today. I miss them.
It’s senior year and I just want to be able to go out more and experience something new.
I’ve been inside this house for so long and I think it’s normal to get out of my comfort zone once in a while.
*Sighhh. I’m not usually bothered by this but realizing that a whole lot of younger kids have already experienced and accomplished so much more than I have really bugs me...
Heh, I don’t trust myself in developing feelings for someone.
Something just makes me so certain that I’m going to let my emotions cloud my mind once someone gives me some sort of “deep” connection and I’m going to assume that they like me when actually they don’t.
And then I end up missing something that I didn’t even have.
Yeah, my journey with...
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Six more months. Six more months until I graduate from high school.
I’m literally counting the days until it happens.
It’s nerve wrecking. I want to be happy and anticipate for the day to come but there is still some thoughts lurking in my mind that are stopping me from doing so.
I don’t feel like I accomplished everything I wanted to get done over the course of my high school...
Christmas time is coming near~
…and I have no idea what to give to my friends.
Lol, this is going to be the first year ever where I actually give something as a present to my friends for Christmas. I’m honestly pretty nervous about it because I don’t know if I’m at all good at choosing gifts for people. Looks like I’m going to be finding out soon.
>____<
27thblend asked: honestly, can i holla? haha
27thblend asked: why u so cute tho?
I don’t really want anything for Christmas.
Finally, I got what I’ve been patiently waiting for.
After years of having this troubling situation within my family.. We have all decided to make amends with each other.
You don’t even understand the relief that I felt when all the adults in my family just hugged everything out and apologized to one another for letting this whole...
Sometimes I feel like I’m just trying my hardest to hold on to something that’s not even there.
October 2011
3 posts
It’s been quite some time since I have ever written something in my Tumblr account.
There isn’t much of an explanation really to why I’ve been neglecting to write anything for so long other than the fact that I’ve just been so occupied with school and whatnot.
Senior year so far.. how can I word in a way that it’ll be as accurate as it can be to how I’m...
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September 2011
1 post
Wow, it’s been quite some time since I have last posted something on my Tumblr.
There’s nothing that’s to say though. It’s been pretty much the same routine everyday since school has started.
Ugh. I wish something new can happen. -.-“
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So my sources tell me that the theme for Homecoming is “Harry Potter”.
August 2011
16 posts
I absolutely dislike the moment when someone I speak to on a daily basis just all of a sudden stop talking to me.
It’s not a feeling I am used to. After speaking to them for so long it just becomes a habit and when they don’t speak to you throughout the day you have that sudden feeling of emptiness inside you.
You know, that feeling that something is missing..
Grr.. >:’(...
I’ve just been so overwhelmed with school lately. This year is the hardest I’ve ever tried to stay consistently productive with my time and effort given to my academic career, I’m not used to it.
Seriously. I’ve gotten to the point where I could be related to that girl in high school you see in the movies that drops three inch binder, her textbooks, and all of her other...
Today at church I witnessed my baby cousin in the arms of my mom.
I literally paused for a moment and I swear I felt my heart skip a beat when I saw them together.
Throughout everything that is going on within our family, she has her niece in her arms.
I never thought I’d see the day..
I’ve wondered what it would be like if this whole situation were to never happen and my mom was...
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I have this new appreciation for my dad. He is the person that everyone turns to when they are faced with a tough situation. But I never had that kind of relationship with him before where I can just speak to him about anything as everyone else can.
But finally I opened up to him about how unstable our whole family is becoming. With that we began to open up to each other more and I found out that...
At school I’m just known as that girl that they can get along with in class.
It’s a bit bittersweet how I’m just viewed as just that. Sure, I can get along with basically everyone in class but that’s just it. The line stops there. I’d be nothing more to them than just that.
Maybe I’m seeking for a relationship that’s more than just “a classmate...
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dannyhiga:
I hope all my friends realize that just because we may drift sometimes, it doesn’t mean we’re not close anymore. The absence of presence doesn’t reflect the level of our friendship. Just because we don’t talk or see each other everyday, doesn’t mean we don’t hold a special place for each other in our hearts. Sometimes the greatest friends can go for long periods of time without...
It doesn’t even feel like it’s going to be my birthday tomorrow. Bleh, I might as well use that time to get everything organized for school since I’ll be going back in the seventeenth.
Yay, for senior year.. heh.
For the last day of my stay in Vegas I decided to go swimming with my cousin, siblings, and uncle.
After we had our fun we all headed to the showers to clean up. I was washing my little brother and decided to mess with him by asking him why he always bullies me when I try to give him a kiss or give him a hug.
He took it seriously and stated, “Well.. it’s because you ALWAYS do that to...
I’m finally back home from my vacation trip. :’)
So recently I found out that there will be a new Spider man. I haven’t searched further into this topic but wow.
I’m not sure how to feel about this. But the reason is because I don’t know how to say goodbye. Having something end, especially when it has been going on for a long period of time makes is difficult for me to accept.
Oh, Peter Parker.. :’(
One of my greatest fears is that once it’s time for me to step out of this household I won’t know how to cope with all of the independence I am given.
I’ve been living in a sheltered life style. I sit here and wonder of what is to come in the near future and I feel unprepared.
Only time will tell, I guess.